i was taking a walk. . . . 

when i saw you smile i saw a dream come true. 

cause i have been waiting for a long, long time

for a boy like you

i won't be waiting anymore 'cause i know

i was made for you.

dead man's will.

Give this stone to my brother
Because we found it playing in the barnyard
Many years ago 

Give this bone to my father
He'll remember hunting in the hills
When I was ten years old

May my love reach you all
I lost it in myself and buried too long
Now that I come to fall 

Please say it's not too late
Now that I'm dead and gone 

Give this string to my mother
It pulled the baby teeth
She keeps inside the drawer 

Give this ring to my lover
I was scared and stupid not to ask
For her hand long before 

May my love reach you all
I lost it in myself and buried too long
Now that I come to fall
Please say it's not too late
Now that I'm dead and gone

all my life i've been prayin for

one day this all will change
treat people the same
stop with the violence
down with the hate
one day we'll all be free

and proud to be
under the same sun
singing songs of freedom

I see your eyes
In my mind
But the moment fades
Slips away
And when I wake
I curse the day
When I torch the sky
See it falling in flames
I'd burn up to see you again

I'd carve out my lungs and it's all just to see you again
I'm sick in my gut from the poison I drank to forget

And since you've gone
I can't forget
When I didn't say
That it's much too late
I feel you here
In my heart
But sometimes I fall
I'm gonna crawl in the dark

I'm trapped in my withering skin
To rot and remember the dead

I'll dig my grave
And wait here for you until the end

You leave me empty inside I'm trying to hold on

you know, i love you so.

I'd Do Anything

"I'd Do Anything"

Another day is going by
I'm thinking about you all the time
But you're out there
And I'm here waiting

And I wrote this letter in my head
Cuz so many things were left unsaid
But now you're gone
And I can't think straight

So now maybe after all these years
If you miss me have no fear
I'll be here
I'll be waiting

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I know
I won't forget you

I close my eyes
And all I see is you
I close my eyes
I try to sleep
I can't forget you
And I'd do anything for you

Music & Me

first day of my life.

Yours is the first face that I saw
I think I was blind before I met you
Now I don’t know where I am
I don’t know where I’ve been
But I know where I want to go

And so I thought I’d let you know
That these things take forever
I especially am slow
But I realize that I need you
And I wondered if I could come home

Remember the time you drove all night
Just to meet me in the morning
And I thought it was strange you said everything changed
You felt as if you'd just woke up
And you said “this is the first day of my life
I’m glad I didn’t die before I met you
But now I don’t care I could go anywhere with you
And I’d probably be happy”

So if you want to be with me
With these things there’s no telling
We just have to wait and see

Besides maybe this time is different
I mean I really think you like me

the world spins madly on. . .

Do You Love Him?

Do you love him, my dear?
Does he hold you? Does he hug you? Does he keep you near?
And as you lie together, does he whisper in your ear?
Do you love him? Do you love him? Do you love him, my dear?

In the evening, those tired evenings, at twilights first glare
Does he lay in your lap? Do you play with his hair?
And when he falls asleep, Do you just stare?
Do you love him? Do you love him? Do you love him, my dear?

Late in the night when you fear the unknown
Does he warm up your mind? As you chill to the bone
I do love you, I do feel you, Each day and night
But I can't tell right from wrong, or fear from insight
But you always knew everything and that is what is clear
Do you love him? Do you love him? Do you love him, my dear?

The more I think about it
The more I know it’s true
The more I think about it
The more I know it’s you

Honey I think you're just right

my current favorite love song

The Gambler by Fun.

Slow down, we've got time left to be lazy
All the kids have bloomed from babies into flowers in our eyes.
We've got 50 good years left to spend out in the garden
I don't care to beg your pardon,
We should live until we die.

We were barely 18 when we'd crossed collective hearts.
It was cold, but it got warm when you'd barely crossed my eye.
And then you turned, put out your hand,
And you asked me to dance.
I knew nothing of romance, but it was love at second sight.

I swear when I grow up, I won't just buy you a rose.
I will buy the flower shop, and you will never be lonely.
Even if the sun stops waking up over the fields
I will not leave, I will not leave 'till it's our time.
So just take my hand, you know that I will never leave your side.

It was the winter of '86, and all the fields had frozen over.
So we moved to Arizona to save our only son
And now he's turning to a man, although he thinks just like his mother,
He believes we're all just lovers he sees hope in everyone.

And even though she moved away,
We always get calls from our daughter.
She has eyes just like her father's
They are blue when skies are grey
And just like him, she never stops,
Never takes the day for granted,
Works for everything that's handed to her,
Never once complains.

You think that I nearly lost you
When the doctors tried to take you away.
But like the night you took my hand beside the fire
30 years ago to this day
You swore you'd be here 'til we decide that it's our time
Well it's not time, you've never quit in all your life.
So just take my hand, you know that I'll never leave your side.
You're the love of my life, you know that I'll never leave your side.

You come home from work and you kiss me on the eye
You curse the dogs, you say that I should never feed them what is ours.
So we move out to the garden and look at everything we've grown.
And now the kids are coming home
I'll set the table
You can make the fire.



{I think that Nate wrote this about his parents through the eyes of his mother.}
It's beautiful and I want a love like this.
Someday

even fairy tale characters would be
jealous. . .

I was made for you

So you want to be in love like the movies

But in the movies they're not in love at all

And with a twinkle in their eyes

They're just saying their lines

So we can't be in love like the movies.


I don't want to be in love like the movies.

christopher robin and i walk along
under branches lit up by the moon
posing our questions to owl and eeyore
as our days disappear all too soon
but i wandered much further today than i should
and i cant seem to find my way back to the wood
so help me if you can ive got to get back
to the house at a quarter by one
youll be surprise theres so much to be done
count all the bees in the hive
chase all the clouds from the sky
back to the days of christopher robin
winnie the pooh doesnt know what to do
got a honey jar stuck on his nose
he came to me asking help and advice
from here no one knows where he goes
so i sent him to ask of the owl if hes there
how to loosen a jar from the nose of a bear
help me if you can ive got to get back
to the house at a quarter by one
youll be surprise theres so much to be done
count all the bees in the hive
chase all the clouds from the sky
back to the days of christopher robin
try to explain how a few precious things
seem to follow through by all our lives
after all said and done i was watching my son
sleeping there with my bear by his side
so i tucked him in i kissed him and as i was gone
i swear that old bear whispered boy welcome home
believe me if you can i finally got back
to the house at pooh corner by one
what do you know theres so much to be done
count all the bees in the hive
chase all the clouds from the sky
back to the days of christopher robin
back to the ways of christopher robin
back to the days of pooh

Honestly, I'm missing you

And I hope that you're missing me.

I want to hold your hand.

{when I touch you, I feel happy inside
it's such a feeling that my love,
I can't hide}

Darlin, do not fear what you don't really know.

I owe you a love song
So much i could say
I owe you a love song
Words that i can't say

Remember the days
Of sleepless summer nights
That took us away
A perfect place a different time
Back when nothing was wrong
Now were each sold separately
Our summers are gone
Grey skies are all i see

These broken days won't last forever
You know i'll put us back together

Waiting alone
In the world you made for me
Makes staying in love
Just a world of make believe
Where im playing along
And your words are clear to me
Like hearing a song
Without a melody

These broken days won't last forever
You know i'll put us back together

I owe you a love song
So much i could say
I owe you a love song
Words that i can't say